delusion, disillusioned

I am fiercely loyal to those who are close to me. If you ever have the pleasure of knowing me, you know I would do anything for the ones I love. But if you betray my trust, trust that I won't forgive you. Instead, I'll forget you.

I am an optimist. And I'll fight to keep it that way. Even though I've been disillusioned. Even though my heart's been broken, and even though some things will never be the same again. I'll still believe that things happen for a reason, a good reason. In hindsight, everything will seem so much clearer. I can say this because I had a best friend since I was 11, and in my senior year of high school, I found out she was sneaking around with a friend of ours. (I didn't like him to begin with, but my other best friend had feelings for him.) It was just heartbreaking to know that someone you grew up with and went through everything with would keep something that should be shared among best friends. Although it hurt so much at the time, and my heart still aches thinking about it, I've realized that if someone was willing to hide secrets from me, they're not worth my time and energy. If someone wants to be trashy and demoralize themselves at the expense of my knowledge, well there goes 6 years of friendship down the drain.